It was refreshing to find your channel on youtube a couple years ago because I resonated with the videos so much, the content just clicked with me. I struggled with what I wanted to do. I couldn't decide between a psychologist, sociologist, a teacher, a forensic psychologist, a life coach, etc. and the list goes on and on... I realized all the career options revolved around a common theme, understanding people and using that information to help them. I couldn't bring myself to spend years in school, work on a consistent 9-5 and so fourth. I just needed a career that gives me freedom and variety, that keeps my mind stimulated and is something I'm 100% passionate about. I'm thankful to have a job at a non-profit for children's education teaching mindfulness or working behind the scenes like planning the lessons, etc. and where I have all the things I listed above. I just know I'm capable of more, to reach more people on a bigger scale, with bigger ideas. When I found this opportunity, I knew this is was what I've been looking for.
It's always been in my nature to read others, I've been a people-watcher since I was a child. I feel I developed this as some sort of defense mechanism, maybe. Basically I was observant/analytical but never took action, I was kind of a ghost. Only a few years ago did I realize, I've been using these skills the wrong way. I'd give off a vibe completely different to people than what I intended to, things go downhill from there. "They won't like me regardless, it's better to stay out of the way." I'd think. I never allowed myself to give people a chance because I had assumed they wouldn't give me a chance. We'd both send the wrong, somewhat defensive "back off" signals which only confirmed my silly belief until I finally snapped out of that. I now know how wrong this is! All I had to do was communicate verbally and non-verbally especially, most people don't even know how to do that but it's not their fault. I can't imagine the impact this would have on my life if I had known this sooner, people need to know this!
I found that I'd either be so vigilant of others, I forgot to do the same thing towards myself and vice versa. There was no in between. Once I directed that attention inward and outward... Finding a good balance, I was amazed at how smoothly my interactions with people were; the way they'd react and how I'd react. I started to practice being more objective, expressive (since I struggle with a constant RBF), confident and honest. Being outwardly expressive was a struggle, still can be sometimes but the difference it makes is worth it.
Don't get me wrong, I still struggle at times but that only motivates me to strengthen these skills because a lot of things that didn't feel like 'me' (I just didn't know it) now come easily and I know a structured course will definitely help. I see a difference everyday.
I want people to know how much power they have and how they can utilize it to change their world, even better, pass it on. I know more than anyone else that it's possible. It's never too late. I've been on the other side of the spectrum, so I use this to genuinely connect with people. I want to teach others to do the same; to have empathy and compassion, to be forgiving and open-minded towards others and themselves. I want to help people find their own personal wisdom, to turn their weaknesses into strengths and be confident with their story and who they are [becoming] in the present. For us all to be aware. Before I do that, I need to do a little more work on myself! I feel this program will get me to where I need to be.